Prologue

They came for her memories.

Carlos didn’t see the procedure. He had already been banned from any direct contact with the family wing after the first extraction had failed, but he heard enough.

“Phase Three, Profile A,” he heard a clinician say as he hid in a corridor he wasn’t authorized to be in.

“A new identity has been assigned, parental figures are out of the way, and ties with other subjects have been severed. It might sound over the top, but the board wants a clean case before we pack up everything.”

Clean case. Sick.

When he heard that, he pressed himself deeper against the wall as though wanting to be merged with it, his heart pounding dangerously. But he didn’t dare leave. He continued listening to them discuss her as if she were a lab specimen.

After that, a new file appeared, containing a new name and a new location.

The program hired a social worker for the transfer as a grand effort to be subtle. They had, after all, started gaining attention, and nobody wanted that.

The social worker was a woman with kind eyes who arrived early one morning carrying a clipboard and wearing a government departmental badge Carlos didn’t recognize. And that made him suspect her even more.

He watched everything from a narrow stairwell window overlooking the exit loop. It was inconspicuous enough that nobody would think to look for him there.

When he saw her, she looked smaller than she should have, with neatly brushed hair and clothes he hadn’t seen her wear before, walking out between two staff members and the social worker.

Her gaze was unfocused, as if she had just woken up from a very long nap and wasn’t sure of her surroundings. Her steps were measured and careful, like those of a robot.

What made it worse was when she looked at him briefly, and there was no recognition. Not a hint that said she remembered the boy whose hands were pressed flat against the glass, his throat full of unsaid words.

Her expression just remained neutral.

She was led to the back door of a plain sedan, and the social worker guided her in and buckled her seatbelt. The adults then exchanged papers and the transfer.

They made it look too easy, like they had done the same thing before and would do it again if necessary. The social worker got in the car, and it pulled away.

Carlos just remained standing there, leaning against the glass. It wasn’t until later, when he saw the prints his palm left, that he realized how hard he’d been leaning.

He had always thought somewhere in his mind that if push came to shove, he would try to defend her by doing something dramatic. Like throwing himself in front of the car, for instance.

He thought he would make enough of a scene to throw off the plans.

Instead, he stood there: fourteen, furious and helpless, and watched her go.

Carla found him later, screaming at the guards after the car had long since disappeared.

“They wiped her,” he said, voice too hoarse from screaming. “She looked right past me.”

“I know,” Carla answered. He couldn’t read the expression on her face. She had gotten so good at masking them after him.

He didn’t know why, but he turned on her then, boiling with so much rage. “Remember, we promised,” he hissed. “You promised—”

“I know,” she repeated, louder this time. “I do not need you to nag me; I already hear him in my head every time I breathe.”

They stared at each other, both of them so vulnerable the program would have deemed it useful material.

“What do we do now?” Carlos asked, breaking the silence. The words came out rough and bitter.

“What we do now is ensure that wasn’t the last time you ever see her. They erased us from her, not the other way around, so we have the upper hand. It’s their blind spot, and we’re going to use it.”

“How?”

She looked out through the window, as though following the ghost of the car along the distant road.

“By first of all, finding where they put her. We wait for the program to go under, because it’s currently on the verge of it. Afterwards,” she added, her eyes darkening, “we go get her. We do whatever it takes.”

That was years ago. Changes happened, as suspected.

The only thing that didn’t change for Carlos, however, was the moment in that stairwell window.

He kept playing it on repeat in his head. Her walking toward a car with a stranger, and him watching with his fists clenched uselessly at his sides, his breath fogging the glass.

It was the first time he experienced loss, not caused by death, but by orchestration.

And right now, watching her cross the quad with a bag full of paintings and a new name, that memory collided with the present so hard it stole his breath.

She didn’t remember him.

But he remembered everything.

And the only part of the program’s story he still believed in was the promise he made to himself.

The promise that if he couldn’t stop them from taking her, then he would spend whatever was left of his life finding her again.